Fear

Im afraid that I couldn't hold back. 
Im afraid that I will be gone without showing my love. 
Im afraid of unspoken words.
Im afraid that I get shot when Im angry.
Im afraid that I will stuck in boring time.
Im afraid that I don't leave smile on people's face.
Im afraid my surroundings don't know that my life was all about them and I love them.
Im afraid that they were stay just because I stay. 
or Pieces of their lives would be blew away with my ashes.

Im afraid that I couldn't survive a pain when its really painful.
Im afraid Im losing my battle.
Im afraid that someday I would give up and be Home with regression.

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