a story about:

I spent most of hours hugging and kissing. I spent most of days complementing and being complimented. I spent most of days thinking what can I do for everyone. I spent most of the months planning holiday with someone. and now Im turning the face. doing all the things in vice versa. spending hours to hate. complementing someone who's worth to. thinking what people can do for me. secretly planning and wishing that I will have my solo holiday. Pathetic, yes. but they dont care, they say. why should I?

I was really sure that so many people would ask "how is it?" they meant to be here, like this. wearing something people dont. hold something people dont. use something people dont understand. and for all the questions. How is it? Strange. because finally I realised that Im really far away from home. from where I started all this. I wasnt really sure to share how is it. because I didnt really feel it. but by this far, I could thankful and grateful enough that everything went so smooth and easy. eventho, Im missing my positive circle before. My supportive discussion circle. my friends. friends who really listened. friends who never leave. ehe ehe ehe yea, its true. kinda missing the clique I used to hug.