a story about:

You know,  Its fun right? to pretend that you are deeply in love to pretend that you never let the girl down to fake the love that you don’t have yet. Its funny  to see the girl smiling for you blushing over your flowers fly the chuckle to your messages Its entertaining  to let her leave the world she’s holding just to be with you to promise everything you could to send kiss and hug even from afar. Feels so good to say that you wont be able to be happy without her to kiss her like you mean it holding her hand like you never touch any girl touch her hair like its the best. Then leave.

World has been so bright lately so its okay to take a moment of celebration take space away from the crowd and be thankful of what you have. World wouldn’t be this bright forever.  I think you knew.  be happy in a little breath.  world wouldn’t always be this happy. 

Currently when Im alone,  Im wondering whether I need time to my self.  maybe I need to go alone somewhere;  talk a lot with my self about another else. talk with the language that only me could understand.  recently when Im alone, I cried a little bit in hold.  I dont want to make sound.  sometimes some words hurt me too much; sometimes my words beat so hard. yesterday I moved my room and cry down. so many feelings are going around.  no one could catch it, don't you think? neither do me.

I'm jealous of the nights That I don't spend with you I'm wondering who you lay next to Oh, I'm jealous of the nights I'm jealous of the love Love that was in here Gone for someone else to share Oh, I'm jealous of the love, 'cause (Labrinth-Jealous Lyrics)