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hari ini abis kerumah bu Isma di Bogor. kita naik kereta ke Bogornya dari stasiun Pondok Cina.. terus pas pulang, gue kerumah temen gue.. pas dirumah temen gue, temen gue yang bukan punyab rumah bilang gini "pulang gih lu, ntar dicariin emak lu" kemudian dengan agak kesindir, gue bilang "haha iya" gue langsung pamit ke nyokapnya temen gue, langsung pengen cabut aja. langsung bener bener pengen cabut, tapi tas gue ditarik. dengan agak susah gue ngelepas tas gue, dan tetep pulang. tanpa uang sepeser pun, tanpa handphone,iPod,novel. pokoknya tas gue gue tinggal. niatnya gue udah pengen balik. cuma hati kecil bilang "udahlah pulang aja,you are unhoped fan" hahahahahaha lucu ya.. segitu sensitifnya gue sama becandaan mereka.. sampe sampe gak pengen balik, gak pengen ambekan gue jadi bahan bercandaan. rasanya nyesel karena udah ngerasa segini lebaynya.. tapi saat itu, rasanya sakiiiiitttt banget.. tapi gak bisa nangis. lebih semacam kecewa sih ya. umm..

Girl : why did you dont stare at me and say something bad about me? Boy: for what? Girl: because, i Think you're there,not for me. not for keeping me. Boy: im there just to be your place where you can find the place to run to. when you dont know where should you go. when you dont know what should you do. just supplier of a shoulder for you to cryin' on. just a factory of laugh to coming your laugh back. just a case of a packet of tissue. Girl: then why did you dont take me from the circle? Boy: its not my job. its your boyF's job. i will always standing on your back. im just a place that you can use to run to. will always be here.   ♥Me,  for all the colour you've made in my life

emmm.. good night, wanna share you something new. something untittled, something that boring you so much. annoying. this life is getting bored anyway, before i meet my way to be happy. to be always happy, no matter what im feelin' i just dont care about people's life, dont care about judgements, dont care about the unclear gossip, dont care about anything that i dont want to hear to. just smile, just made a standart to my self that 'i cant be badmood, i have to make my mood by my self, i will looking for my moodbooster by my self." god will always there, he was always there. will always. will never far away. will never stay away. god will always with me, with all of my step. maybe something happens and makes me regret it all.. just fell me down, scaring me to take a new step and a revolution. yap! until i found the method, the way to get our happiness. we are happy because we want to be. just it.