a story about:

Fan, This could be your blast from your past. This is 2 days after the announcement of your first company. 2 days left before your first day. I dont know what you're feeling now. some people may predict that you will hella tired. but I know you will be fine. Please be fine. That is your dream. You almost cry because they told you little bit late after your expectation. Fan, If you ever think to stop and give up. please think about how many prays that clouded upon your position today. Do cry, but keep going. Fan, you are so happy now. SO HAPPY. I dont know whether you still remember your feelings or not. but if I can tell you, you are thrilled because you're so happy. you worry about your first day, and how you can be impressive. fan, you know you can because people around you can do it. This is would be your blast from the past.

Im afraid that I couldn't hold back.  Im afraid that I will be gone without showing my love.  Im afraid of unspoken words. Im afraid that I get shot when Im angry. Im afraid that I will stuck in boring time. Im afraid that I don't leave smile on people's face. Im afraid my surroundings don't know that my life was all about them and I love them. Im afraid that they were stay just because I stay.  or Pieces of their lives would be blew away with my ashes. Im afraid that I couldn't survive a pain when its really painful. Im afraid Im losing my battle. Im afraid that someday I would give up and be Home with regression.