Tired

tired to be asked.
tired to be replied.
tired to be strong
tired to pretend
to close all of the feels
to giving up all of the chance
to shut the mouth up
to keep silence
to keep being hurts
to stay being cool
to stay being calm
to stay being fool

...........
if you know,im not that strong.
i should be though in front of the friends.
im  not that strong to keep my voice up.
to not singing
to not shouting my feels
to all
tired to protect people behind my back
then struckted by them
by the people i kept in.
i believe in.
i just lost my power.
i just lost my reason to be okay.
i just lost my way to be happy.
i just the best answer to smile
i just lost... my destiny

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