a story about:

I was about to give you my heart. and you were gone like you wait for nothing. I was about to worry for us. and you gave me zero chance to make such an 'us'.

Trust me, you dont need me or us.  you need the feeling before it changed.. you dont miss me, you miss the situation you had before. dont take anything when you dont even have enough hand to hold. it hurts me, fyi... Its not only your feeling but also mine.

Im so excited to be a part of your day, and your week, and your year and your life.

When I was teen I used to read a teen romance novel. And mostly, they published by Gagasmedia. Gagasmedia author like to be looked intelligent and classy, so mostly they talk about art and work. Some novels, which talked about art, always mention about an exhibition, either its paint or a photo exhibition. The author will tell me about the ambiance and some times love happens there. Until tomorrow, I always wondering about how is the feeling to be in friend’s gallery or art work exhibition.             But tomorrow, an old friend invited me to be a part of his opening exhibition, and then I came. I almost cry over there. Because I saw passion, dream, and pride gathered in one place. Like wow, their dream made all of those. It was amazing. Heart-warming, that’s the word. Because when I came, there is someone who’s literally screaming meanwhile he was singing. I don’t like hard music, but when I was there I cant stop looking ar...

You were fine before it.  you will be fine after it. 

        Something that I know about friendship is you have to be fine first until you can make people around you fine.  You have to find your own happiness until you can freely give it to your friends.  And the last thing you should know about friendship is, once they ignore to hear, they aint worth keeping for. I mean it when I say sorry, and even thank you but not please.  

Senja, Kali ini tanpa bisik aku sampaikan doaku Untuk Tuhan yang katanya berada tepat di atas sana. Aku meminta Tuhan menjaga aku Menjaga sahabat sahabatku. Menjaga kami Menjaga usaha dan doa kami. Menjaga kepercayaan dan optimisme kami Menjaga cerita dan memori kami. Aku meminta untuk dijauhkan dari fitnah dan apapun yang Engkau tidak sukai Dijauhkan dari kesalahpahaman dan kebencian Dijauhkan dari firasat dan prasangka buruk Dijauhkan dari keburukan dan keburukan setelahnya. Kami menyerahkan segala persahabatan kami kepada Engkau, Dan kami memuji dan mengagumi usaha satu sama lain atas nama Engkau. Amin.

Kepada Senja, Aku sisipkan tatapan nanar saat memandangmu Aku selalu sampaikan harapan yang mungkin memberatkan Aku selalu mencintai yang bukan kamu Dan aku selalu menunggu gugurmu Kepada Senja, Yang indah namun terkhianati Aku meminta maaf atas nama diri dan egoku Setulus tulusnya Sebagaimana kamu mencintai gelap setelahmu Kepada Senja, Untuk cantikmu yang tidak pernah diabaikan orang Terimakasih karena ketulusan pesonamu Terimakasih sedalam dalamnya Sebagaimana kamu menjaga keagungan bulan diantaramu dan gelap setelahmu.

“I hardly recognized the girl you are today And, God, I hope it's not too late” lost-MichaelBuble  In the past 2 years I met bunch of people. They come Then go. Some people come back Some are literally gone. Some people can easily help, some cant move without benefit. Some stays Some cant. Some trust Some don’t. And those are totally okay. Because you are not alone, if you are shitty you will be with 200000000+++ people around the world. And if you are good you will be with the rest of this universe. I ever being trusted; being dumped; being stabbed; being friended; unfriended; invited; uninvited; being understood; being spoken up and shut; being loved then left And if you want to know more complicated thing I ever being followed and unfollowed; shared and unshared; being in an inner circle and being dropped out. Hahahaha Then again, That’s just a phase. What I’m trying to say here is: I ever felt so much pain in life. I ever am ...