a story about:

There are plenty fish in the sea, they say But you know, the only fish that I want is one I don’t like fish Except that fish I don’t believe in fish but that fish I never try any fish unless that fish Fish that pray to the cross and me pray to the stone Fish that couldn’t see widely and me can’t have tiny sight Fish that believe and I don’t Fish who tries and Im afraid Fish that love and I doubt Its okay to have storm Everybody says storm will pass But, how about the after effect? How about the houses that broke? How about the fear? How about the trust? Yea, people.. Storm will pass but not the story.

I miss you… You know how it feels? I’m missing you till this heart shakes. My body shakes. I miss you, You know how it hurts? Its like your breath break your rib one by one I miss you So I count to the tears that fell So I count to the night to change So I repeat song that sings us No sleepy feeling worth our chat No tomorrow’s schedule that waits No light could break the horizon I miss you. I miss you Like nothing in this world worth my eyes And by the way, from 1 to 5, how much I miss you is 2 and already dying. 

One day you will wake up on the afternoon and realized you wasted lots of time after planning for good things. Today, I watched Paper Towns Movie . Right after my lecturer asked me about what Im doing right now in this life. And out of nowhere I assumed that I knew what im doing right now, when in fact I don’t. “ …………..“ Those were things I knew in life which were my comfort zones. “ …………………………………………………………………………………………….” and those were piece of real life where my dreams live. Sometimes we should make a paper town for a paper girl Because people just wanna see us the way they wanna see. Because we just trying to be what society want over what we really want. Don’t you want to run away? Don’t you want to cry when all your dream life was only in a movie? Don’t you want to make a blink for your problems? Don’t you want to have a date with your bias? You want them, yes. But only in your sleep You fight for it. But only for the pride ...

I have different kind of humor I do humor to judge To judge who’s here Who is gonna stay Who’s gonna leave To judge the way you interact with people To judge how you response on my call To judge your communication with your parents The only thing I could to make people stay is humor And the easiest way for me for letting people go is also humor I have serious issue with humor And never make humor as a joke I do humor for life. Not living for humor. Im seeing you through your humor Im seeing you through the reason you laugh Once again, I do humor, deal with it first. And watch me fall.

Last day of this year. Alhamdulillah Praise to God Ends with thankful and grateful feeling Alhamdulillah 2016 would be my last age as a 'teen' because I will have my 19 on Jan. 2016 would be my big year because I suppose to go abroad for an exchange. 2016 would be my best year because I planned every single detail for every single f'in month. 2016 would have its 29 of Feb after 4 years of waiting. 2016 should be awesome! For this last day of the year, I want to close this chapter with pray and hope. Hope that y'all would have great lives ahead; have tons of fortune; have lots of love. Happy New Year, people. Let a story begins with love and wish. " Bismillahirrahmanirrahim."